Thanks to fenixraccoon who came and chilled with me this weekend =3 Was totally fun. Though instead of Star Trek, we went to the Angelika and saw Adventureland, which was enjoyable.
Afterwards, I took him to a nice bakery/deli and we went shopping and stuffs. I love my roommates and such but... hmmm.. Like I said to him, I need to go out and do gay things on occasion just to indulge in it.. X3 Then we chilled back at his place some, very good day all in all. <3

As for now.. ugh. I'm going to go to A-kon since it is very close to my apartment; just for one day on Saturday.

I hope to see anyone there.

and thanks to kroxywuff for getting me into WoW. I'm gonna start playing >.> But I won't get addicted, I swear. I get the appeal now. I will play casually. TF2 would be my main obsession still. xD

Anyhow, laters to all.

Not totally. Work has been unreal lately with one project just eating up so much of our time. I've had to cover the slack of 2 people to keep afloat while they took care of it.

It's been pretty rough these past weeks with this but it all ended Friday, finally. So now normal life can resume.

Gah, I need a drink. You know, I'm surprised at myself at how I used to hate it and now I find myself wanting to now... I dunno. I guess it feels better than being stressed. I'm still getting used to drinking. Don't take much for me to get trashed :x I wonder what things I am against now will eventually have a change of heart. =/ Not the first time it has happened.

Need more excitement and less work. Bleh

5 new lugnuts and wheel studs and $300 later, my vehicle is totally up and running again. I was driving with this slowly happening before I realized 3 of them just broke the fuck off. Ugh, thank God I wasn't on the highways or hauling my friends around before it was too late. =/

Hmm, lots of TF2 lately, so much fun. I haven't really had the money lately to pay for the batches of new XBox 360 games 'cause my car and insurance are money hungry. But eventually I'll play some RE5 and whatnot when I get them.

felt like posting something. @.@ first time this weekend where I was pretty bored. I had one minor deal with work but overall I had the day to myself. A true rarity! I ended up just cleaning around and watching an Eagles DVD and playing around with TF2.

Hmm, quick question to friends, especially those who I've known for long periods of time. I'm no social butterfly but have I become less shy and reserved in real life or am I about the same? I used to have a a nasty fear of people a few years ago but over time, I would like to think I have broken that shell. I'm not sure if I'm where I want to be... I just don't want to be on the sidelines all the time.. X3

I'm also beginning to feel more comfortable being around friends and such... Hmm. Normally I was the type to not want to be touched or snuggled against but I too have broke that over time.

I guess that's the meaning of this pointless post. I'm really trying to shift away from the sky geeky schmuck I used to be. And be somewhat more mature; the kind of person who someone says "Yeah, he's pretty awesome." X3 As vain as it sounds.

Oh, speaking of vain, new art!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2026947
My badge from Balto, bought at FF

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2013253
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2013216
Demo 'yote and Heavy Weapons 'yote. Finally done!

Mmmmm, dinner time. :9

Alright, after a somewhat decent day at work, I have returned to sanity and am doing pretty okay, though still tired and PCD setting in =/ I'd be lying if I said it wasn't. Hard to return to a work mindset after such a fucking awesome weekend. Okay, here we go. I need to spill it out because I'm already kind of forgetting D:

Thursday
I was majorly stressing because it looked like it was going to be another busy day at work where I'd work until 10 PM and I wanted to get there really early. I finished my last call at 6 PM. By then, my phone was buzzing off the hook with calls from my brother and furs I was needing to pick up asking me where I was. I hurried home, packed whatever i could find for the hotel. I'd been working so much I didn't prepare =/ but I scrounged some old badges and random clothes and it worked. I first picked up closet_fennec (Chris). I grabbed my vehicle and went downtown Dallas to pick up huskyboy8721 (Adam) who had been sitting at Subway for five hours. I was still feeling nervous from the day. And I was meeting a friend, Jonathan, I ended up driving the wrong way on a couple of streets =/ I pulled over and told him to meet me at McDonald's parking lot, which I did. I've known this guy for years so it was great to see him finally. then we headed to the hotel!

Paid for the hotel, got to my room and Chris. While settling in Chris grabbed a friend named.. um, Melkiah .he was friendly. Then I scooted around and walked 'round the con and went to sleep.

Friday
Got up early and found furries already roaming the halls @.@ Even at 7:30AM! I was surprised. Got registered and saw my good friend Mitch in line =3 Roamed around and saw another good friend fenixraccoon (Fenix). And through some friend of friends, another fur named Chase all boarded up in my vehicle for some lunch at Which Wich. Me, Chris, Fenix, Adam, Chase, and Mitch. Wow. XD My vehicle only seats 5. Poor Mitch volunteered to snuggle himself in the trunk. Poor guy!

After lunch, I came in just in time to welcome another good friend, Myffubs, and get a much needed tight squeeze =D Did more con activities and the opening ceromonies. Got to see secrets_of_tye again. Was nice. ^^ Just as silly as I remember ;p Also met more people through friends, including tanukisan, who is very cool :D After a big dinner, I got a badge commissioned, bought a necklace, Circles 8, and went to the live Knotcast broadcast but I had to leave unexpectedly because my bestestestest Margay buddy Tsuki and his mate Tristian finally came in... it was so nice meeting him cause we've been close for so long, it was fantastic to see him again. Plus Tristan was equally friendly and nice!

Oh. Um. before that, I was offered a little bit of sake.. and.. um. x-x Not so good results xD I'm sure a lightweight. I did sober up but was pretty buzzing for a while. The long day came with a hard crash asleep!

Saturday
My natural body clock got me up again at 7:30 and I was roaming the halls a little bit. Dressed up, talked to people, and then got everybody up for more fun. X3 For lunch, all of us went to Sweet Tomatoes, goofed off, ran around and got pics of fursuiters. Saw a hilarious improv set with them, too =3 We then all saw the fursuit parade and many people we knew there. Then it was dinner at El Fenix, with everyone again. Kind of a rude waiter. =/ Was another great time though. Fenix and I ran into a furry literature panel afterwards but it was boring. I was feeling a little bit too tired and stressed so I got away for a bit and crashed at his place.

Had a talk that helped me re-think about myself and such. Afterwards, I got much needed quietness. Was very rewarding!

Sunday
After getting ready, we drove to the con for the last day. Wasn't too much. Caught up with everyone and then everybody split for a bit. Had a small lunch, watched a little movies, also ran into more people. People were leaving bit by bit, though. I kept roaming the halls until closing ceromonies. Afterwards, Fenix left, Tsuki and Tristan shortly afterwards. Chris said goodbye to Melkiah and I went saying bye to just 'bout everyone I knew. The last person I saw was Dizz, who too talked to me for a while and was great to be around.

I drove Chris home and realized I forgot my phone at the con. After getting it, I crashed at home, drove Adam to the bus stop, and then went to Jury Duty that was scheduled. 6 hours of sitting just to be told that the case was settled out of court. There went the day.


oh! i did remember something new. There was a bulletin board on the front area of the 2nd floor in which I wrote "I can't be the only coyote here!". I seriously didn't run into any others. The next day, 2 people replied: Kayote and Oki Doki Coyote. Didn't meet the first. I ran into Oki Doki in the Con Suite room on accident, I said hi and then realized it was him to responded. Had a lil talk about the awesomeness it is of being a coyote fur as well as how we live our lives in that mannerisms. I ran into him again in the fursuit pinata incident event and gave 'him a good ol scritch :D

It may have been insignifant but it sure was cool and left a lil impact. On top of that, it really made me want a fursuit. XD Even a partial. Now that my parents' loan is paid off and FF is over, I will make it a project this year to have some sort of thing ready for the next year. I know it'll be costly, though D= Plus I need to find accepting artists and creaters and whatnot.. oh well. I for sure want to begin something.


I know I forgot other events, some people. I seriously can't name it all. I just want to thank everyone <3 It was sooooo much fun :D

Home. Con was so much fun. So many people I met, tons of great times, art, etc. Lots of stories, new friends, and got to see sides of friends I never knew. Too much for my so tired mind to think about atm.

But I'm home, and equally I am glad for that. I need to relax.

Instead of acknowledging the pros and cons of today, I post the art I've received lately.

http://pics.livejournal.com/feelthewind/pic/000scc15
Colored face sketch from soundhound, always love the very toon art. This one's even better than the last :D

http://pics.livejournal.com/feelthewind/pic/000sd3r4
Free badge I received from Pensive. was very nice to receive this; and looks cute! And I'm too lazy to edit it. That Gabe fur is someone else I dunno =o

http://pics.livejournal.com/feelthewind/pic/000sewqy
Colored sketch, full digital piece still awaiting. Myself as both a Demoman and a Heavy from Team Fortress 2. Heavy being who I play the most on PC and Demoman when I play on the 360. Fun times, fun times.

http://pics.livejournal.com/feelthewind/pic/000sf88c/g14
Christmas gift I bought for my close friends Merja and Tsuki, on the left and right. Both needed some holiday spirit so I sprung for this lil sketch. ;3

I've had a pretty average, busy, slumpy, okay week. Today was a little better considering I gave my mom a nice gift and had a great gathering at her place with lots of people. Also had some great time talking with good friends, always makes me feel better.

Anyhow, I drown into this Eagles track that's been haunting my mind lately. Look 'em up sometime. =o

So I got the tax return back. Well, like a few days ago and I blew most of it already. My computer now has a video card, a new mouse that doesn't hurt my fingers, a keyboard that's nice and spaced out, a new connection for my monitor, microphone, etc. Great stuff. And what'd I do; get steam and Team Fortress 2. I've been playing it so much on 360; I wanted the full stuff on the PC and got everything needed.

Not only that. My computer's performance has increased dramatically.

The con is 3 weeks away. Looking majorly to it as I plan to meet a lot of friends and spend some great times.

That's it. I hope to keep up back with my resolutions again and get back on track to getting out and taking care of myself. I just want to feel alright, ya know? I'm sick of being disappointed with life as of late. I don't really have faith nor confidence in anyone these days much at all. There's a small core of friends but most everyone else just disappoints. I'm unsure if I just tend to magnet myself to these people or if there's something wrong with how I am carrying myself =/ Blargh. I've been stewing it over my head for weeks, especially these last few ones.

I hope everything rebounds back up from the harsh downs as of late.

I've bought some more commissions like an idiot. 2 more. Knowing I have at least 5 or so more out there in well over a year's time I haven't heard contact from. x-x Here's to hoping these ones actually respond and keep up with me.